What was meant to be a lifelong, passionate affair had shrunk into a minuscule version of itself, slowly burning out at its core, leaving the simmering ashes to become a cold powder.
INHALED: AN INTRODUCTIONI never thought my years of marriage were perfect. Who’s are? But, I had held the firm belief that to better one’s relationship, however flawed, you must look inside, not outside the marriage.
I knew I was not the only woman who had had the safety of her world destroyed, the structure of her life disjointed, the foundation of her union blasted. Countless stories depicting evidence of marital crumbling are readily available to the insecure voyeur like me, seeking reassurance in futile comparisons. I wanted to share my story, not as a premise for revenge, no; I wanted to unburden myself from the encompassing guilt that had woven its way into my stomach. I needed to describe, in painful detail, this unexpected life passage I had chosen to walk, its fine line sometimes erased or redrawn, oblivious to the hurt and destruction that would ensue.
My desire to share was a function of survival, as I needed to finally breathe properly, dilute the shame and access the universe’s forgiveness.
From the moment we decided to sell our house and cars, pack our container and leave Montreal, I felt the urge and stamina to finally write. Fate had interfered and injected multiple obstacles to stunt my initial efforts, until the right subject had imposed itself on me.
With her marriage failing, Isabelle cannot ignore the opportunity life has given her: the opportunity to enter a new world—a world of sexual freedom. Quickly seduced and hypnotized by Patrick, a Nicaraguan man she meets online, she gradually begins to understand something about him is amiss. Silencing her own intuition, Isabelle falls into the arms of hope: a hope she keeps weaving into a new reality, putting her life and that of her daughter’s at risk.
In this romantic thriller, where sex is used both as a weapon and a cure, Isabelle exposes with great lucidity, the dangers of becoming entangled with a person whose character is poisoned by narcissistic and sociopathic traits. Set primarily in New England, this is the story of a woman’s struggle to seek stability where none can be found. It is the story of a woman’s desperate need to surrender and escape, whatever the price.